ennui.

Word of the day: Ennui
Pronounced: ahn WEE

Definition: (noun) a feeling of discontent or weariness; boredom

Example: To enliven and rejuvenate a person suffering from ennui, one might prescribe a dose of scintillation, titillation, or jubilation.

that night.

It’s been a long time since I have felt pure happiness.
Just when I think I’m there – My mind flashes back to that day.
The day that forever changed my life.
I’m getting better at ignoring the painful memories of her passing
but the events of that night still burn fiercely in my memory

The night air had turned crisp
Dew capped the cooled spring grass
The moon shined down, casting shadows on the familiar objects of my childhood
Everything was simultaneously where it should be and out of place
My mind raced to catch up with the events of the day
Sadness took over my body and my mind was numb
We worked so hard, yet ultimately failed
She was gone and we were left behind
I must have sat on those porch steps for a good hour
I stared at the stars looking for God
He had to be there somewhere

That night I realized my life was never going to be the same
Over a year has passed and I still fight the painful memories of that evening
They say time heals the heart, but who can put a timeframe on a hurt that runs so deep?
I continue to live my life, stumbling frequently along the way
I have a lot to learn and hope that when the day comes for me to see her again,
That she will be proud of me and all I have done

Today is a tough day
They come and go
Tomorrow will be better and I will hold my head high
Just the way she’d want me to

writing class.

so i started taking a writing class. and... i LOVE it. each wednesday and friday we get writing assignments. it's all done online which allows for great flexibility! from time to time i'm going to post excepts from the class on here. i'm not sure that anyone reads this thing anymore, but at some point i hope to futher develop my site into a somewhat entertaining place to pass through. standby...