another dose of the om.

February 28, 2008
Freeing Up Energy, Healing What Hurts

Many of us go through our lives being aware of a well of pain that has been under our daily awareness for so long we aren’t even sure where it comes from. It almost seems as if it’s part of who we are, or the way we see the world, but it’s important to realize that this pain is something that needs to be acknowledged and processed. The longer we sit on it, the harder it is to work through, and the more likely it is that we will be forced to acknowledge it as it makes itself known to us in ways we can’t predict. Rather than waiting for this to happen, we can empower ourselves by identifying the pain and resolving to take action toward healing it.

The very thought of this brings up feelings of resistance in most of us, especially if, on the surface, our lives seem to be in order. It’s difficult to dig up the past and go into it unless we are being seriously inconvenienced by the hurt. The thing is, when we are carrying the burden of our unprocessed pain, sooner or later it will inconvenience us. If we can be brave and proactive, we can save ourselves a lot of future suffering and free up the energy that is tied up in keeping the pain down.

There are many ways to do this, but the first step is to recognize the pain and honor it by moving our awareness into it. In this process, even if it’s just five minutes during meditation, we will begin to have a sense of what the pain is made of. It might be fear of abandonment, childhood abuse, anger at being mistreated, or some other long held wound. As we sit with the pain, we will also have a sense of whether we can deal with it by ourselves or not. It may be time to work with a counselor or form a healing circle with close friends. Whatever path you choose, resolve to go deep into the pain so that you can release it fully, and set yourself free. Remember, it is never too late in life to heal what hurts, and there is never a better time than now.

oh boy.

here's an interesting one.

http://similarminds.com/maslow.html

another day. another set of lyrics.

I am obsessed with lyrics. Especially by brilliant musicians. If you aren't familiar with this song - DL it from itunes. Best .99 you will ever spend. Hell, splurge and buy the entire album. I would be SHOCKED if you didn't like it. Rock on Brandi.

Falls Apart Again (brandi carlile)

Long is the day, take it away
Hold it up and you don't let it fall
Cause devils play, was yesterday
And I don't care about that at all
I just smile, once in a while
'Cause I don't want the lines on my face
And I sit right here, holding the years
And I count all the stars in space

You fall apart again and you can't find a friend
Don't turn to someone else 'cause they won't understand...

Self respect, goes unexpressed
I don't dream because I cannot sleep
And I think the world of myself
But the world doesn't think much of me
As long as the day is full of time,
there will always be room for your hand in mine

You fall apart again and you can't find a friend
Don't turn to someone else because they won't understand
I don't want to hear you say that you miss yesterday
If you don't like what you see
That means nothing to me

No one's home - I'm alone with my music and my tv
And I still say that yesterday is best when left to sleep

You fall apart again and you can't find a friend
Don't turn to someone else 'cause they won't understand
I don't want to hear you say that you miss yesterday
If you don't like what you see
That means nothing to me...
That means nothing to me...

I hope tomorrow is like today

I am feeling especially sentimental today. Of course, I am having a super busy day at work - AND - it just happens that this is the first day in a long time that I have felt like writing. Always seems to sneak up on me at the most inopportune time. Oh well - I can take a 5 minute break from work to spill something out.

When I got into work this morning I went through my rituals - setting up my computer, getting a cup of coffee (green tea today), checking email, perez, and launching my itunes. The past few days I have been listening to club-style music. Personally, I think it's carry-over from Vegas. Today I did something I haven't done in a long time. I set my list to "random." (I have some great tunes saved that I had completely forgotten about!)

Around 11:45, Guster started to play. I forgot how much I liked their sound. The slower stuff, not the bubblegum pop. The track "I Hope Tomorrow Is Like Today" came on and sent me into a wave of memories. So that we are on the same page, here are the lyrics:

I'm awake, you're still sleeping

The sun will rise like yesterday

Everything that we are now

Is everything we can't let go

Or its gone forever, far away

I hope tomorrow is like today

Don't you go away tomorrow

I don't think I could handle that

You're probably dreaming that you're flying on

Then you start to fall

But then you rise and shine forever

Don't go away

I hope tomorrow is like today

Doesn't this song remind you of the beginning of a relationship - when everything is fresh - new - undamaged? Where you can't stand the thought of being away from the other person... That the simple thought of them can make a bad day amazing?

This song kinda had that effect on me today. It made me remember all of the amazing things I have going for me. Especially, the love and support of my husband. I know I can be a real pain - but at the end of the day - there is no one I would rather be with.

So Brian, not that you read this... but thank you for not "flying on," for putting up with me, and for loving me as I am.

what do YOU think?

from today's daily om... sometimes these things just make so much sense.

Small Steps To Big Change Making Big Change Easier

When we decide that it's time for big changes in our lives, it is wise to ease into them by starting small. Small changes allow us to grow into a new habit and make it a permanent part of our lives, whereas sudden changes may cause a sense of failure that makes it difficult to go on, and we are more likely to revert to our old ways. Even if we have gone that route and find ourselves contemplating the choice to start over again, we can decide to take it slowly this time, and move forward.

Sometimes the goals we set for ourselves are merely indicators of the need for change and are useful in getting us moving in the right direction. But it is possible that once we try out what seemed so ideal, we may find that it doesn’t actually suit us, or make us feel the way we had hoped. By embarking on the path slowly, we have the chance to look around and consider other options as we learn and grow. We have time to examine the underlying values of the desire for change and find ways to manifest those feelings, whether it looks exactly like our initial goal or not. Taking small steps forward gives us time to adjust and find secure footing on our new path.

Life doesn't always give us the opportunity to anticipate or prepare for a big change, and we may find ourselves overwhelmed by what is in front of us. By choosing one thing to work on at a time, we focus our attention on something manageable, and eventually we will look up to see that we have accomplished quite a bit. Forcing change is, in essence, a sign that we do not trust the universe’s wisdom. Instead, we can listen to our inner guidance and make changes at a pace that is right for us, ensuring that we do so in alignment with the rhythm of the universe.

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